Chapter 4 - The End !

Life and reality are things which cannot be controlled by anyone at any point of time, we can try our hardest to control it or shape it according to ourselves but we will fail every time we try to do so. Time flies at it’s own pace and we all have to face the mistakes we commit at some point or the other.

Eagerly waiting for her reply I passed the whole night and finally we came across each other but we didn’t talk as there was this undefined awkwardness between us and I was hesitant enough to ask her. Our class ended, I forced her to talk to me and she agreed but she applied a condition that it would be our last conversation and we would never talk to each other again. Finally I got her response on the world’s most difficult question “DID SHE LOVE ME ?“ she said “YES !" She likes me, BUT can't be in a relationship right now as she had to focus on her studies. At that moment I thought maybe she was trying to ignore me, so I tried to ask her friends if she had discussed anything with them or about her feelings towards me but in vain. I was so focused on getting her reply that I forgot to consider her family, her condition or the situation in her house. Despite knowing how strict her parents were I tried to force her to open up.

But when I saw tears in her eyes I felt blank, torn. I completely forgot what was going on in my surroundings and my only focus was to wipe her tears. I knew these kind of things were considered total taboo at that age but WHAT IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE? What if the only thing you wanted was to spend time with them ? But does society think about that ? The answer is “NO”. They only think about things they care about. After that day, we hardly used to talk to each other but when ever we saw see each other or our eyes met it made both of us happy. And just like that it was the end of everything, there isn't always a happy ending to a story.

There are things which one can’t get no matter how hard they wish for them, but we can try to keep their memories with us and remember them in our memories. Even today I wish for our paths to cross so that at least once we can meet each other and maybe this time things go in a different way. I always wish to see her smiling face, the way she used to see me and especially the way she used to make me notice her new accessories or dresses and the way she wanted me to appreciate her on how beautiful she looked. Man ! I really miss those days and the times spent with her. Those moments and especially her. Sometimes I dream that somewhere she must be sitting, having coffee and reading all these chapters and smiling and then suddenly I get a message from her and a sudden twist of fate happens and we meet and continue our story once again.

-Srivastav